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I can still see you
In your beautiful pea-green boat
Standing in the bow
With a miniature silver Jesus
Hanging at your throat¬
Love was so inaccessible
Like a castle with a lava moat
Tell me what can you do
When it’s all too tangible
And your younger self
Don’t know how to cope
CHORUS
All that year I was kicking myself
Cos I never could have loved you more
You were just a public school posh
But never cut glass
Tear it out my chest
And you can tie it to the mast
It was just a crush
It was just a crush
It was just a crush
It was only
Young dopamine
Sinking like a submarine
Just like a memory
When you duck and disappear
Into a hazy shade of summer
I can still see you
Riding through the yard
With no hands on the handle bars
Expensive confidence
Unaware of consequence
So sure of your place in this world
You were like the heir to the Greenleaf fortune
And you chose my sister over me
But I can hardly go about blaming you
Back then everybody did
You were a fully fledged
Solid gold demi-god
And I was just another snotty kid
Trying to be rid
Of this thorn in my side
CHORUS
So many days have gone
And I realised somewhere along the line
That you’re sharing a name with my son
CHORUS
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Drag myself from my bed
Around twenty past six
Get my kids up
Make breakfast
One egg, two toast, three Weetabix
And as I sit down I look up
And you're standing in the doorway
Sun at your back
In my old brown dressing gown
Well no one could love you more than I love you now
But I gotta go
Running for the bus
Coat flying and I try not to miss it this time
But the drivers waiting and that's strange
Kids on the top deck quiet for a change
And there's no rain and no roadworks
In the bus lane and all my hurts run away
And I'm smiling as I'm punching in
CHORUS
The day I died was the best day of my life
The day I died was the best day of my life
Tell my friends and my kids and my wife
Everything will be alright
The day I died was the best day of my life
The secretaries they got a smile for me
And the In-tray on my desks almost empty
I get a memo from executive Joe
Saying Rob the gob is getting kicked out
For embezzling funds from the company account
And I'd be lying if I said I wasn't chuffed
'Cause I always hated Rob
And now they'll probably offer me Robs old job
And in the park at lunch
There's no winos on my favorite bench
None of that drunk chat
None of that pissy stench
And the scrawny little pigeons with the gammy legs
Decide to dive bomb from someone else's sandwich instead
And there's something about the city today
Like all the colors conspired to overwhelm the grey
And this close to the fire I can feel no cold
With a rainbow halo around my soul
CHORUS
So I leave work get to the high street and I miss my bus
Should I wait for another?
No I can't be arsed
I begin to walk
And rush hour crowd seem to part like the red sea
And I'm stopping at the offy
Twenty cigarettes and a six pack to relax me
And as I cross back over the street
I guess I never saw that taxi
CHORUS
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The rain shuffled in on a wind from the east
Equally falling on man and beast
Where you sat between a rock and a wounded tree
And a sorrow maybe fifty fathoms deep
In gods purpose do you dwell
Or did you hang your colours on the gates of hell
Tears running clearer than a morning bell
That I know never rang for you
You should
Go down to the river side
Where the fishes in shadow’s glide
Stay and rest your weary limbs
On the edge of where the end begins
Go down to the river’s turn
Where the secrets in shadows burn
Your scars were never hard to earn
And you’ve still got a lot to learn
You keep reliving that spark and crack
Tearing at your brain like a shark attack
And there’s no cure for a Macbeth hand
And the pounding in your ears like a marching band and
That boy lying on the blasted grass
Red wrapped round like a scarlet scarf
The jokes on him so why’s it hard to laugh?
Cos it’s nothing that he didn’t deserve
Nobody else around made the car swerve
Showing his face around here he had nerve
White outline still ghost on the curb
Brand new black hole so deep it’s absurd
I know you miss her
I know you miss her
Miss her
I know you do
I know you do
You should
Go down to the river side
Where the fishes in shadow’s glide
Stay and rest your weary limbs
On the edge of where the end begins
Go down to the river’s turn
Where the secrets in shadows burn
Your scars were never hard to earn
And you’ve still got a lot to learn
Twenty four nights in McCarthy’s landscape
Staring down the barrel of a demon’s handshake
Crossing crossroads on lost roads on off-world
And scanning star maps for the eyes of a lost girl
You can’t stay here much longer
In the back of the Honda
Another back of beyonder
Too sad, too somber
Feeling like hope’s a goner
But I don’t wanna leave you neither
Digging up the seeds of the fever
You should find a phone and call your mother
She told me she’s not sleeping either
Nobody back home believes that what you did was right
But who could be too quick to blame
If they’d been in the same position you were
They’d have all done the same
I know you miss her
I know you miss her
Miss her
I know you do
I know you do
You should
Go down to the river side
Where the fishes in shadow’s glide
Stay and rest your weary limbs
On the edge of where the end begins
Go down to the river’s turn
Where the secrets in shadows burn
Your scars were never hard to earn
And you’ve still got a lot to learn
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The facts and the figures
They overwhelm and stifle
Everything that you thought you knew
The facts and the figures
They overwhelm and stifle
From the very first breath you drew
And the petty decisions
That we think make a difference
Are so tiny that they blow away like dust
Embers embers embers embers
Through all of the devilish things we do
Through all of the devilish things we do
Through all of the devilish things we do
Through all of the devilish things we do
I can’t help my stupid hope
It’s always with me
I can’t help my stupid hope
It’s always with me
I can’t help my stupid hope
It’s always with me
I can’t help my stupid hope
It’s always with me
The facts and the figures
They overwhelm and stifle
Everything that you thought you knew
The facts and the figures
They overwhelm and stifle
From the very first breath you drew
And the petty decisions
That we think make a difference
Are so tiny that they blow away like dust
We are all embers from the same fire
We are all embers from the same fire
We are all embers from the same fire
We are all embers from the same fire
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I still can’t believe that you love me girl
I’ve always been an average guy
Never even been that sociable
I’d rather stay home and get
Some sleep with you, just eat with you
We’ve got kids to feed and mysteries to solve
And hands to hold and common colds to cure
And there’s only one thing I know for sure
We need
CHORUS
One night alone
Yes just
One night alone
I know it’s only
One night alone
But it’ll be fabulous, fantastical
And quite good
Has it really been thirteen years
Only unlucky for some
I doubt I could have been more into you
If cupid had a submachine gun
And I know, and I know,
And I know, and I know
Sometimes it’s boring and tedious
Feels like the feeling is leaving us but
Hold on just a little bit longer
Stay with me
And I know eventually we’ll get
CHORUS
Don’t interrupt me while I’m speaking
Daddy got drunk on the weekend
Tried to bust a move like MJ
Still be paying for it in ten days
Feeling uncomfortable like a futon
I just need my fucking kid to get her shoes on
I’ve asked her about five million times
And the five million rhymes
Is the… *mumble mumble*
See? Tiredness has got me rambling
Half the time I don’t know what the hell’s happening
I spend days just distractedly wrangling
Play Dough mangling, trampoline trampling
And I swear that we could sleep for a decade
Just as soon as we get this double bed made
But I know we’re only heading for a headache
Four in the morning going off like a grenade
Still late night sipping on lemonade
Me and Mr Attenborough
Nature’s renegades
Next doors cat’s doing the moonlit serenade
Sometimes this is the hardest game we’ve ever played
Take a breath
CHORUS
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She's got a whole lot of disco friends
Disco ladies and gentlemen
Eating their faces from the inside out
Freaky dancing til the late am
Music dripping down the wall like sweat
She's catching fishies in her disco net
Blowing kisses in the powder room
Slowly sucking on a cigarette
CHORUS
And the girl knew exactly what to do
And when she walked into the room
Everybody just stopped to stare
You’re gonna know
When we’re coming back down again
She knows an awful lot of disco kids
Novelty sun glasses and mullet wigs
She says she wants to be a stylist
Or maybe something in the music business
Daddy’s rich, mummy’s beautiful
They always said she'd make a top model
But now she's hiding out in disco land
A happy clappy trustafarian
CHORUS
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I’m moving your mental feet in complex dances and jigs
I loosen up your consciousness like syrup of figs
It’s time to emerge from camouflage leaves and twigs
Time to throw away the fake noses and fright wigs
Time to face the music no more metaphor
Time to decide your fate will you be cooked or go raw
Will you be rare and bloody with your soul exposed
Or well done, a charcoal surface with your insides froze
And do you feel fear as you hear another door close
Or will you just turn away and float where to wind blows
And are you still satisfied with the pathways you chose
Or would you like to go back and rewrite the old prose
CHORUS
Do you count the flakes when it snows
And can you feel the heat or only the afterglows
Do you count the flakes when it snows
Yeah
Do you count the leaves when they fall
And can you feel anything at all
Do you count the leaves when they fall
Yeah
And does your life sometimes feel like one big fake orgasm
A gut reaction, instinctive spasm in the chasm
And do your problems metamorphose into Rubik’s cubes
Keep twisting and turning becoming more confused
Do you sometimes feel like you’ve been used and abused
Your not physically black and blue but on the inside bruised
And does your love life leave you feeling kinda bemused
You’ve played all the games and you’re no longer amused
CHORUS
Sometimes it feels like I’m looking through a pane of glass
I can see your mouth move but can’t hear the words
CHORUS
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There’s a little lake of tears
In the middle of the kitchen table
And she watches as another one
Drips from his nose into the deep
And he keeps talking and talking and talking
But talk is cheap and weak and watered down
Just another awkward sound she doesn’t need to hear
He’s just a shadow only half a man
And she can hardly muster even half a damn about this
Sorry situation
In the the back room, kids are watching Frozen
Fate’s her only opponent
CHORUS
Hey, Annabel
What you gonna do girl?
Hey, Annabel
What you gonna do now?
There’s only so many times
A grown woman can swallow this
Hollowness
Before her itchy trigger finger
Starts to wake her in the dead of night
So she goes walking and walking and walking
But these old streets don’t change
There’s no metamorphosis here
Were you really gonna wait until the coast was clear?
Were you really gonna wait?
She’s just a shadow
Only half a human
Living a half-life inside the institution of what?
Does she only ever get what she’s got?
With the voices in her head all screaming..
CHORUS
In the pre-dawn silence
Her hands are shaking too hard
To hold a secret cigarette
Strange kind of violence
When the blows never land
And the blood’s never let
Annabel
You’re one of the best
We’ll always love you
Even if he don’t
We’ll always love you
Even when he won’t
Annabel
You’re one of the best
Only a winner on a losing streak
When you can’t find strength
Doesn’t mean your weak
These were always someone else’s decisions
This was always someone else’s life
These were always someone else’s decisions
This was always someone else’s life
These were always someone else's problems
This was always someone else’s wife
It was always someone else’s husband
It was always someone else’s wife
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I'm feeling groovy, kicking down the cobblestones
And there is music in every sight and every sound
No need for headphones
I tip my cap to the world even though I don't wear one
Grinning at the women in the salon getting their hair done
On the outside looking in like an aquarium
Spinning with the stars in the planetarium
Deliriously, mysteriously I'm feelin' curiously marvelously
Super duper like Joss Stone
My heart melts like ice cream cones
Grinning like a dog digging up dinosaur bones
I used to be fossilized but now I'm out of my shell
And I'm happier than whores with chivalrous clientèle
This can't be real, I must be dreaming could somebody slap me
I'm feeling so mischievous, original cheeky chappy
It must be ages since I felt satisfied just to be
Just Jack and just that, still intact
CHORUS
It's just another one of those glory days
Jump out your bed, shake your head, clear the haze
Step out your house and prepared to be amazed
It's just another one of those, just another one of those
Just another one of those glory days
Jump out your bed, shake your head, clear the haze
Step out your house and prepared to be amazed
It's just another one of those glory days
I'm so warm, new dawn, reborn, new forms
And I'm thinking ‘bout my boys Joe Le Chic and Freshly Sean
And I know you're underrated but one day we'll all make it
And walk around naked with our bollocks platinum plated
Anyway, I'm off track gotta stop that
And get back to the high street, I need something to eat
Stop at the cafe, coffee and a salt beef bagel
Yeah, I know I'm caned but now I'm feeling able
I used to get so paranoid in places like this
Stayed in my house for days with my weed psychosis
My neurosis was thinking everybody's staring at my red eyes
And shifty expression but now I'm past caring
And I can feel that destiny is on my side
And by the looks of things, fate came along for the ride
Behind green skies, I can see my girl's eyes
Damn it, I'm in love with this planet, you gotta realize
CHORUS
It's time to look to the future
Just when I was getting used to
The humdrum
I realized in the depths of my depression
That I really wanted to be someone
So let's smash the past like a tacky figurine
On the back page of a supplementary magazine
But for the time being, bump your head to the beat
Sit back, put your feet up and relax
CHORUS
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Living in a bedsit
Close to the World's End,
Sitting in his Y-fronts
Sponging off his girlfriend
Kerry
She says life's right there babe
Should be getting on with it
Had a bit of talent
Now you've all but squandered it
It's silly
And his relatives all think that it's a shame
And they'd say that it was a mystery
If his Dad wasn't exactly the same
CHORUS
He's been a space cadet for years
Says one day he'll be an astronaut
Floating in the hemisphere
And looking down on Hampton Court
But he's always late
Knows one day he'll graduate
Then he'll be floating in the ozone
High above the empire
High above the empire
State state state
He's living in a
State state state
He's in a proper
State state state
They've got him in a
State state state
Sofa surfer
Likes a little gamble
A few dodgy debts
That he says he can handle
Maybe
Never not brassic
Stays in most nights
Jostling to pixelated princesses on websites
Frantically
And his family all say that it's a waste
And they wash their mouths out
With self-righteousness
To hide the bitter taste
CHORUS
Kerry’s love is cold and congealed
Like last night's take-away
And she feels
She might have to do some kind
Of midnight flit
All there is to say has been said
And as the sky's turning pink
She leaves her keys by the sink
And takes one last look at our hero's face
CHORUS
Life goes on
It will be played out
But something's s'posed to happen man
Before the fade out
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released October 8, 2021